Ciaran John Goodwin

From the very beginning I loved you,
As I made plans to hold you and rock you:
You were tiny and helpless as you lay in my womb,
But something went wrong and soon you were gone;
My young heart was broken, my tears fell like rain,
I'd never known such heartache and pain.

I wonder who you look like, me or your dad,
Do you have my smile and his eyes?
Would you have been big and tall or tiny and small?
We had dreams for you that reached to the skies.
It was long, long ago and I still miss you so,
Thanks to Jesus, I'll see you in heaven.

I'll hold you in heaven someday,
When my trials on earth pass away;
The angels have rocked you, the Father watches over you,
I know you're waiting for me;
I never could hold you or tell you 'Goodbye',
But I'll hold you in heaven someday

Laura (Friend) July 16, 2007

sorry for your loss

so sorry kat i understand what your going through babe as we lost our babies around the same time
love and prayers with you babe xxxx michelle1974

Michelle (Friend) July 13, 2007

My Mum is a survivor,

Or so I've heard it said.

But I can hear her crying at night,

When all others are in bed.

I watch her lay awake at night,

And go to hold her hand.



She doesn't know I'm with her,

To help her understand.

But like the sands on the beach,

That never wash away...

I watch over my surviving mum,



Who thinks of me each day.

She wears a smile for others...

A smile of disguise!

But through Heaven's door I see,

Tears flowing from her eyes.

My mum tries to cope with death,

To keep my memory alive.



But anyone who knows her knows,

It is her way to survive.

As I watch over my surviving mum,

Through Heaven's open door...

I try to tell her that angels,

Protect me forevermore.



I know that doesn't help her...

Or ease the burden she bears.

So if you get a chance, go visit her...

And show her that you care.



For no matter what she says...

No matter what she feels,

My surviving mum has a broken heart,

That time won't ever heal.

Nchola Jamie Henderson Long Mummy (Friend) July 7, 2007

Can You Be A Mother When Your Baby Is Not With You?

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked 'What makes a Mother?'
And I know I heard Him say.

'A Mother has a baby'
This we know is true
'But God can you be a Mother,
when your baby's not with you?'

'Yes, you can,' He replied
With confidence in His voice
'I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay.'

'I just don't understand this God
I want my baby to be here.'
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat,
And then I saw the tear.

'I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child's smile,
With all the other children and say...'

We go to earth to learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear,
My mummy loved me oh so much,
I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mummy,
Who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My mummy set me free.

I miss my mummy oh so much
But I visit her every day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillows where I lay

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear
Mummy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here.'

'So you see my dear sweet ones,
Your children are okay.
Your babies are born here in My home
And this is where they'll stay.'

'They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lessons through.
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start.

Though some on earth may not realize
You are a mother.
Until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
and know that you are the best one.'

Have fun with the Angels my precious boy. I miss you every day but I know I'll see you in heaven. Love Mummy xxxx

Kathleen Goodwin (Mother) July 6, 2007

I'm so sorry for your loss. I can really relate to your pain, I'm going through a rough time at the moment struggling with losing my son back in April. My thoughts are with you and your family xx

Tyler And Taylors Mommy July 6, 2007

i wud just like to offer my sincere sympathy to all the family at the time of this tragic loss, let peace be with u all. i lost my Daughter Caitlin 18 month ago so i know just what ur going through. u will never 4got ur little 1 but as time goes by things do get easier. god bless u all x x x

Gemma Wilkins (passer by) July 6, 2007

sorry for ur lose

as ive said before im soo sorry for ur lose and i cant imagine what ur going through i had a friend actually it was a friend of my moms but anyway his wife (ex wife now) had twins and one of them died a few days after they were both born and the other one survived and we thank god every day that we have him and we think of the one who is not with us....he is 4 now and getting more grown up every time i see him and i cant imagine life without him......but anyway im rambling but just keep strong and u will get through this just like our friend did!!

Megan July 6, 2007

angels in the sky

As soon as God gave ur baby life within u he became an angel. and what a beautiful name has ur angel. i know we don't understand why our angel left so soon but we are sure lucky moms. i also have felt like i'm dieing away without my son but God will bless us and help us understand. be strong and trust in God. the bible says 'one day we will see them again' God bless u and ir fam.

Maria Bonilla July 6, 2007

A grieving mum and nana

I am so sorry for the loss of your little Angel, a baby is a baby no matter how far along you were.You have my deepest symphony as I lost triplets and know your pain, even thought it has been several years since they became Angels I have never forgot them and miss them so much, they were part of me and always will be, and then in Feb 2006 God decided he needed my 8 week old grand-daughter as well to become an Angel.I thought my world had stopped and the pain was indescribable.
Ciaran will always be with you and I hope you find comfort from this wonderful site, God bless and take each day at a time.Hugs to you all xxxx

Alishas Nana, Mum To Angel Triplets (nana of an Angel who flew to Heaven on Feb13th2006) July 6, 2007

Don’t let them say I wasn’t born,

Don’t let them say I wasn’t born, that something stopped my heart,
I felt each tender squeeze you gave, I loved you from the start.
Although my body you can’t hold, it doesn’t mean I’m gone,
This world was worthy not of me, God chose that I move on,
I know the pain that drowns your soul, what you are forced to face,
You have my word, I’ll fill your arms, someday we will embrace.
You’ll hear that it was “meant to be, God doesn’t make mistakes”
But that won’t soften your worst blow or make your heart not ache.
I’m watching over all you do, another child you’ll bear,
Believe me when I say to you, that I am always there.
There will come a time, I promise you, when you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips and then you’ll understand.
Although I never breathed your air, or gazed into your eyes,
That doesn’t mean I never “was”…An Angel Never Die`s

Nothing can ever take away the hurt and pain of losing your child nearly three years on it still hurts as much as it did the day my baby left us. Stay strong for each other and always remember him until you meet.
Have fun Ciaran playing with the angels im sure Klay will look after you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Julia Burns (Passing by) July 6, 2007